I have a confession. I used to be really good about alone time with God. I mean I was really annoying about it. I woke up earlier than I needed to, sipped my coffee, read my bible, and soaked in the Holy Words while my people slept peacefully in the comfort of their beds.
Recently, I can’t keep up. I can’t even get up. I can’t focus. I can’t feel it. I just can’t.
I also really loved to write. I mean old school style hand write. I loved journaling my thoughts and looking back on God’s hand all over my story. And then I just stopped. Ok, well maybe having two beautiful children has something to do with it…
And maybe I can’t get up, literally, because I just can’t. Because my days are spent cooking, cleaning and changing diapers and my nights are interrupted at 2am to feed my sweet son and nourish his growing little body… I’m just tired y’all.
But here I am up before 7am this morning to soak in the quiet time just me and cal-baby. And I am overwhelmed with devotionals in my inbox trying to figure out JUST. THE. RIGHT. WORDS. I’m searching for the words that encourage, uplift, inspire, wake up, and speak to my weary soul.
This morning my finger scrolls down to an email from the encourager of all encourager, Ann Voskamp. The subject line: “abiding even when you can’t get alone.” Words from Ruth Schwenk. My second cup of coffee in hand and the sun beginning to rise over the horizon. I’m all ears. I dig deep.
Remain in me, as I also remain in you. No branch can bear fruit by itself; it must remain in the vine. Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in me. John 15:4
“Being a mom is a calling to selflessness.”
“For all the joy that motherhood brings, the give-and-take can leave many moms feeling wear, overstretched, and empty”
“How do we stay strong and able to give?… The answer isn’t always getting away; the answer is abiding more deeply. Right where we are.”
“We can’t imitate Christ without being joined to Christ. To ‘abide’ literally means to ‘stick to'”
“As busy mamas, abiding can seem impossible at times. we give, and give, and give, and we must be sure to fill up, so we have something to pour into those around us.”
“The task of being a mom is too big and overwhelming to try and do in our own strength… If we don’t fill up, we will quickly dry up.”
And isn’t that the truth. If we don’t fill up we will dry up.
We become… short with our kids, our spouses, ourselves. We are overwhelmed. We are discouraged.
It is in the grace of abiding that we are set free from these battles. It is in the abiding that we receive the strength to make it through. To push through another Tuesday filled with peanut butter and glue sticks.
The call is to get up, to wake up, to abide. You will not be able to bear fruit yourself and for those around you without receiving the daily life-giving sustenance from the branch.
Recently, I started gardening. My sweet hubby and I, with the help of my mum, built some bed, laid some dirt, and stuck some roots in the ground. And, I’m obsessed. OBSESSED people. Every morning I check for new change, new growth, new life. I analyze the leaves: are they bigger? smaller? yellow? green? droopy? I check on my garden multiple times throughout the day and water it each night. I worry about it at 3am when hail drops from the sky. I’m constantly checking in.
But am I constantly checking in with my heavenly Father? Do I notice my soul like I notice my garden? The leaves in my garden are attached to the vine, they are reliant on the garden to flourish. I encourage you to breathe deep in the sunlight today. Allow yourself to be filled up. Remain on the vine. Abide in his word. Soon you will flourish.
Let us then approach God’s throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need. – Hebrews 4:16